Author: thesheisproject

For days I felt empty. But afraid to articulate my feelings, I dismissed them instead—searching for comfort in the possibility that the sudden change I felt was really just the mark between trimesters. They say that once you’ve seen your baby’s heartbeat, your chances of losing her diminish to between 3-5%. We had seen her through an ultrasound only weeks before—healthy, strong, growing right on track. I knew the statistics. I knew the probability. But …

It was 5:15 a.m. 27 December 2012 when a horrendous scream jolted me awake. At first I thought I was having a nightmare, I could hear words being formed but I refused to believe that they were true. ‘He’s dead, He’s dead!’ It was my mother’s voice and within a split second I was fully awake. My father was dead. I jumped out of bed and ran to my parent’s room. My mother was sitting …